Well, yeah. Didn't make it to the grocery store yet. Even asked to get dropped off and it was a no go...UGH! Hubby made it through the first week, but is breaking down, focused on what he can't have .....and dare I say, lusting for it. This is a MAJOR lesson and the repeat of this record playing over and over again gets halted NOW. It was a full on meltdown and took the family for a ride. And the lesson learned?
Mindset sets the world you will perceive, and the life you will live. You will either enjoy what you have AND make the most of it joyfully, or despise what it is that you have (in plenty), longing for what you "can't" have. It really is an opportunity to do something impactful for you and your future. Improved health is not just for 30 days. "Restricting" yourself is a viewpoint that keeps you from being creative with what is available to you and keeps you trapped to more than just the food you eat.
The goal is: Get high quality protein and produce along with healthy fats in so as to maximize the best energy output and health you can. I don't care WHAT that combo is gonna look like or feel like (warm food vs. cold food) when I am hungry, I just want to be fed (according to the above standard). For breakfast I could have Salmon and and a bowl of berries....or Salmon and a banana LOL. Got my healthy fat and protein, plus produce. My belly would be satisfied, my body won't feel burdened and I can get on with my day. It's the same options when you are lost in the wild. Would you starve because you wanted pizza and couldn't have it, or would you copy the grazers of the field and start chowing down on the grass and leaves they were. Or better yet, roast a few grasshoppers for a light, crunchy snack? Know what your body needs at its most fundamental level and you will see how SIMPLE it is to meet that need....no matter where you are.
His longing for the foods he wanted could not be satisfied and no matter what option I presented to him, he was not having it!! May need a counselor to get through the 30 days of ED HA!!
For spiritual and other reasons, I am fasting for a day. I need to cleanse the mess from my mind that was dumped yesterday (as it echoed through my children and they began doing exactly the same thing....HOW frustrating!) and I find that fasting helps me to get centered and focused. I prayed deeply yesterday.....then I got up, prepared dinner for everyone else and then went to my room. I have been here the whole night.
It will also serve to give me the room to get the foods that I need to get into this house so that I am able to eat according to plan (eat at ALL...the fridge will be hollow by tomorrow). As it stands, I am not prepped for more than a day on the wave. There are eggs, lemons, broccoli (2 servings for me) and rice available (thank God for the turkey I froze and coconut oil).
The best thing about the ED when you are strapped financially is that you can pick the simplest of foods and know that your needs are met. I go for superfoods at this time...broccoli, berries, fish, seeds and nuts, and try and steer away from fruits and starches as they spike my cravings and hunger more. I feel satisfied while eating on the wave. I find the key is in the coconut oil and well timed snacking of nuts. Simple grocery list and the highest return of nutrition for your buck.
I am recovered from my body pains (will consider an epsom salt bath next time) and look forward to starting week 2. I am loving my renewed level of discipline,, love, and focus....HERE WE GO!
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